thoughtstop : actions speak louder than words

A wonderfully cloudy day, a light crisp breeze and a whole lot of lush green grass under her feet .... a scenario so perfect that in other circumstances she would have loved it.

But here she is, not knowing why did she ever agree to be there at all ... a situation so utterly uncomfortable for her and she knew this was how it would be. Still she agreed, maybe to put an end to his endless complaints of how she never gave him enough time or importance.

They talk. No, he does. She pretends to be clinging to every word of his. A mask of faked interest to which he is ignorant. Its better this way, she thinks.

And then he decides to take a walk. Her hands grow cold and a chill runs up and down her spine. Her sixth sense tells her to run away but she knows she cant. So she keeps walking, dreading the moment he asks her something to which she will have no answer.

The moment comes ... and goes. The silent lingers. He is probably being very much a gentleman and waiting for her answer very patiently. Words fail her. No, he says; he needs an answer then and there. Cannot wait, you had ample time to think.

And for just one instant, she closes her eyes and asks God for help. She knows the answer but no courage to spell it out to him.

When she opens her eyes, she does not see his questioning eyes as she had imagined she would. Instead she hears him say to her :

'mera khayal tha keh ab tak hum saath chal rahay hei ek rastay per. mei ne dhyaan hi nai diya aur tumne rasta hi badal lia?'

She turns in the direction of his voice and realizes that what had seemed an instant to her, was probably a minute of walking in a direction so further away from him that they were now standing far apart. She decides to wait for him to come over and they walk again.

'chalo mei tumko wapis ghar drop kardoon', he says. She looks at him with a blank expression.

'kuch nai. mujhe bilkul mehsoos nai horaha hei keh hum saath chal rahay hei'.

He got the answer without her saying any words.